Nicole's Summary

After using devotion as a form of working with the WH  for several weeks, I have realized  (as Piet mentioned 2 weeks ago in his responses) that although this practice might be helpful, it is not necessarily "working with the wh in a true sense". For me, it has led me away from the essence of the WH, if any such essence exists.

In my meditations and writing this week, I realized that this week (and for several weeks) I have merely been going through the motions with very little, to no contemplations. This idea of attempt at devotion and surrender has simply created a space where I can come back to when the mind wanders off and I manage to catch it.

In reading others’ postings, I realize that I have been very non-contemplative and this has created a sense of lacking. The strongest thought I've had this week was that "Time just passes" and nothing really happens, nothing is happening - time is simply passing - or if time as I know it, is but an illusion - nothing is passing - nothing is happening - same conclusions. At first this thought or idea seemed depressing - but I've now re-formulated it into another context - that nothing needs to change - or happen - time doesn't pass. Days don't go by. There are simply individual moments that I glue together and add meaning to.