Jake's Summary

On my first day I meditated on the Anti-Working-Hypothesis:

'Everything is imperfect'. I didn't feel good all day; I kept running stressful thought patterns. This bad mood might be an indication that the AWH is false. I am not yet ready to handle this type of meditation.

In the following days, I tried Piet's breathing yoga. I breathed in imperfection and breathed out perfection, and vice versa. I tried a modification: Breathe in while holding a thought, breathe out and release that thought, breathe in while holding the last thought in your mind, breathe out that thought… After each cycle it seems that I am going deeper and deeper as I am holding more and more subtle thoughts. It is also possible to compress a full cycle in the breathing in and a full cycle in the breathing out.

Regulated on my breath, I tried to surrender. It is not easy to surrender, we fight everyday with our almighty ego, but I have the impression that when you have totally surrendered, you become complete or using Rod's word you are totally 'centered'. It is a strange this surrender/completeness duality.

My last meditation has been the most interesting. Breathing in, I imagine I was looking at my face and physical body, breathing out, I sank into myself. Breathing in I looked at my emotions, breathing out, I sank inside the emotions… After some time it seems that I went through many layers. At some points, I felt I was going down my spine, reminded me of Frank's mind/body integration. What will we find after we passed all layers?