Maria to Piet, Rod and Heloisa

Dear Heloisa, Piet and Rod,

Piet, after contemplating your last suggestion about causality, I am not sure I understand exactly what you are suggesting or how to put that into practice. I would love to hear about your and other people's experience with that.

Participating in the WoK experiment has been a useful experience for me as I have always shun away from discussing my thoughts and experiences about these matters with anyone. I think partly because it is difficult for me to put my thoughts into the right words and partly because I found the more I try to explain and describe my experiences, the further away I get from a knowing and the more confuse I get. So by joining the WoK experiment, I have been challenged to see if I could get my thoughts across to others more clearly.

I found, for me, language remains a problem and a hindrance. Words that we use trip me up as they cause my mind to conjure up ideas and expectations that may not be correct. For instances, our working hypothesis of "all is complete", what does that exactly mean? My greedy mind interprets completeness in many ways such as "maybe, I will get everything that I want, and without any work or effort, if only I knew the right solution" but I know that is not what is meant. Intuitively, I have an understanding of "all is complete", but I think that it is undefinable in words.

Another example would be "no intrinsic limits to knowing", this again confused my mind as it greedily wants to be a know it all. The first thing that came across my mind is that I want to know about the future. Of course, this is a false notion but that is a trap that I fall easily into. In fact, when I posed my question in my last email about whether it is possible to know without limits, and to illuminate all, the answer came to me that I was confused and was operating out of my thinking mind. There is an all knowing but not in the ways that my thinking mind wants.

I have been experimenting with relaxing as a way to adhere to "all is complete" and noticing more on what I am doing physically, mentally, energetically when I unconsciously or consciously tense up. Relaxing for me still has to do a lot with surrendering. Surrendering for me doesn't mean giving up to some religious doctrine but rather that as I realize more and more that all happens within the mind, there is nothing beyond that. Perhaps this is not the right notion, but that is my understanding thus far.

I look forward to hearing more from all of you and about causality.

Maria