Jake's Summary

This week I sat and did nothing. Sometimes, I relaxed and then relaxed relaxing. During two meditations, there was a sudden change of my mindset. One moment, I was unsettled and was experiencing automatic thoughts and the moment after my mind became clear and calm. The more you want the shift to happen that less likely it will happen. We don't find calmness, calmness finds us.

The rest of the week has been hectic. It is impressive how bad news can trigger stuff that was hidden in me. I had the chance to see anger and frustration pass through me, knowing that it will pass in its own time. Some of those emotions went back to hide inside and some passed away. In this emotion rush, I saw completeness as a very abstract concept while seeing that it is so close at hand. I saw that I could let it all go and all would be good. I only managed to let go a part of it. I guess it is what we can call a work in progress where there is no progress to be made.