Nicole's Summary

This week has been somewhat of a turning point for me in many respects. Things at school have stabilized and I find I'm able to sleep again, without worry – my sleep is deeper and more complete. I find I am Being more and more in the moment, whether I'm aware of it or not. Almost like becoming aware makes me unaware… can one Be in the moment and then somehow awareness pulls you out of it?

I noticed in my journals that I've been faking my meditations this week – like I've been sitting and as Miles said 'riding on the coattails of my thoughts' and it hasn't brought me very much – except old patterns of thinking. I would like my 5 minutes of sacred space to be more of that – sacred. I am going to ponder tomorrow how I will dedicate my practice – What I will do – because an analytical thought process of breaking through the walls of 'who am I? Who is this Me that thinks?' does not seem to be the way.

I need something more concrete to help me align with the universe – something more tactile… something that is less of a forcing and more of an allowing… a letting go of the ideas and constructs, this brings me more peace and insight than thoughtful analysis.