Maria's Summary

I have been thinking about the question 'What is it like to be this knowingness?' as put forth by Jake to Frank in his posting last week. In order to really sink into this question, I had to be very sensitive to and pay full attention as it is so easily covered by mental static. With meditation and quieting myself, I am finding that I can catch my mind faster and see more clearly when it is caught up in one of its modes of aversion, attraction or plainly absent. Just yesterday, my baby woke up unusually early and was just enjoying the light streaming into the bedroom. Me on the other hand just wished the baby would go back to sleep so I could snooze longer. But there again, I was wishing for something other than what is. But who is the "I" that is seeing this?

This reminds me of Nicole's posting last week as she asked '"who is miserable? who is suffering?'...One full breath, before I heard "me! me! me! I'm suffering...!!!" So again, knowingness is present. Who is the one that heard and that knows?

To rest in knowing requires much responsibility. One has to respond to what is at every moment either with action or inaction but every moment is owned.


Last week, I had been struggling with a way to stop in the midst of an emotional storm and regain presence. I am still working on just being in the moment and realizing all is complete, so that any minor complaints about the moment is then a lapse in presence.