Nicole's Summary

Week 4 has proved to bring me more understanding of the overlap between "life", the WH and the anti-WH.

I placed more intention this week into remembering to remember the WH while at work and over time found success in that. Yet, I found that as I took one step forward, I took two steps back. I found that focusing on the WH brought me great sensations of energy, focus and joy. I then became attached to this buzz. The second step back was as I became more focused on the WH during work, it was further from my consciousness during non-work time.

Yet, strangely, focused or not, my experiences tended to be positive. The overall feelings and sensations at the end of the day were happiness and peace.

Additionally, I became more aware of anti-WH thoughts - cyclical thoughts of negativity that somehow, at some points I could watch myself having them, as an adult watches a child throw a tantrum - with mild amusement and almost-detachment.

Although I would observe the mind-ride I was on, I wasn't completely detached as these moments still had an impact of unease and un-peace.

In sum, I feel like I am progressing despite my pace of one step forwards and 2 steps back. Reading others' experiences gives me an excitement and drive to continue as I feel like I'm part of something important that is bringing me somewhere.