Nicole's Summary
Week 4 has proved to
bring me more
understanding of the overlap between "life", the WH and the anti-WH.
I placed
more intention this week into
remembering to remember the WH while at work and over time found
success in
that. Yet, I found that as I took one step forward, I took two steps
back. I
found that focusing on the WH brought me great sensations of energy,
focus and
joy. I then became attached to this buzz. The second step back was as I
became
more focused on the WH during work, it was further from my
consciousness during
non-work time.
Yet,
strangely, focused or not, my
experiences tended to be positive. The overall feelings and sensations
at the
end of the day were happiness and peace.
Additionally,
I became more aware of
anti-WH thoughts - cyclical thoughts of negativity that somehow, at
some points
I could watch myself having them, as an adult watches a child throw a
tantrum -
with mild amusement and almost-detachment.
Although I
would observe the mind-ride I
was on, I wasn't completely detached as these moments still had an
impact of
unease and un-peace.
In sum, I
feel like I am progressing despite
my pace of one step forwards and 2 steps back. Reading others'
experiences gives
me an excitement and drive to continue as I feel like I'm part of
something
important that is bringing me somewhere.