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This week brought two wonderful surprises, a lucid dream and an unexpected
insight to a problem I'd be stewing on. It inspires me that despite any
seeming struggles with meditation and remembering (or forgetting) my evening
entries, 'things' are still happening below the surface.
The lucid dream was the third I've had in my life and definitely the
longest, though I wasn't lucid throughout, I came in and out of lucidity,
within the dream. I would be aware for moments of the "dream-ness" and the
when the events changed, I would lose my lucidity and get lost in the plot,
much like I seem to do in everyday life - moments of awareness ("hey! This
is a dream! heehee none of this is real. There's no need for fear, I can do
anything I want") with feelings of lightness and freedom... followed by BAM!
Back in the dream!~ Moments later (Wait a sec, isn't this a dream?)
My insightful moment came the next day during my morning meditation. For the
first time in several weeks, I was actually focused on offering myself again
- true surrender rather than a little mind game... moments later, the
'answer' to my underlying question simply appeared. I wasn't even aware that
I was still pondering the question. I 'thought' I'd abandoned it over a week
ago, and then, there was an answer in clear, perfect detail.